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The end of what I thought was an unending chapter.

As many of you may know, I’m in the process of writing a book on my personal story about entrepreneurship and life as an entrepreneur. Today marked a completed chapter. It was a chapter that had no end for quite some time. I left it open for the past several months… hoping that one day I’d finish it – or maybe find that it was an unending chapter.

It’s been on my mind and partially written since March, but yet I just wasn’t sure if it was going to be one simple chapter or if it was a never ending chapter – and one that would weave in and out of all the chapters in my book.

I’ve had no problem finishing 9 chapters and this one marks the 10th – and the most important. I guess you could say it is (so far) the peak of the story I’m trying to convey. I decided to leave it as one simple yet complicated chapter, one that won’t open again, one that is over, and one that has prepared me for the future writing I’ll be doing.

It didn’t end the way I anticipated, but it ended with a lesson learned.

It’s funny how writing a book can make you look at things in a whole different perspective. I realize that when you’re writing about business and entrepreneurship – it ends up being a very personal book. Entrepreneurship has been in my life for a very long time. But entrepreneurship is also a very personal journey, too. They are closely related – both having happiness, love, struggles, heartache, and lessons learned.  All good, all hard, but all part of living life as an Entrepreneur.

I now know that there’s no such thing as an unending chapter. All chapters have endings… and I’m no exception to that rule.

Soon I’ll be sharing with you a sneak peak chapter of my book. I hope I have you wanting more… because there is so much more to it… so stay tuned.

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Am I Scared? Hell Yes.

I’ve always been one to never admit that I am ever scared. I’m tough. I can handle fear and I have never been too scared of anything.

Until now.

Perhaps I’ve been scared all along – and I’ve avoided the feeling altogether. I don’t know. But when I sit here and think about where I’m at in my life – it freaks me out a little bit. Life has gone by so fast. Where has the time gone?

I’m super excited to be moving to Florida – yet, I’m scared as hell. I’m moving alone, moving to a place where I know a handful of people, and no family. Yes, it’s extremely scary. And yes, it was my choice. Something is telling me to do it while I can. Live a little more than I am, and enjoy getting to know myself even more.

And in the same breath – I’m THRILLED to be moving to Florida. Perhaps I’ll find someone to love, someone who enjoys the water as much as I do, who knows. But I know and feel that it will all be great no matter what happens there. I just know I’ll grow there. It’s the next chapter of my life. And I know it will be a chapter I won’t ever forget.

I honestly believe that if something doesn’t scare you enough – you’re not pushing yourself like you should. By being scared it’s just showing you that you’re living. If you’re not scared, you’re not living – period.

I now know that scared is good. Scared is great. Just know it’s a sign of truly living life.

Change is scary. I could probably control my situation and stay in the “safe zone”. But the safe zone isn’t the life zone – take the action, turn your life around. Be scared. If you’re not scared, you’ve settled – and you’re in the safe zone. If you’re one of these people – you should really consider making a change in your life. Consider living again.

I’m now accepting what is. I can either fight it or accept it. But I can’t change it. I am what I am. Love me or not. This is me. This is who I am.

It all comes down to a choice. You have a choice between happiness and suffering. I choose to feel the excitement about what’s to come – even if it scares me. I’m going to keep moving forward with wonder about all the possibilities that are headed my way. I’ve settled many times in my life. I WILL NOT do it again. And you shouldn’t either.

I am scared, but I am ready for more.

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