Bear with me as I take the first steps in outlining who I am. Keep in mind that this will take many days and nights, but I’m bound to know who I am and I’m going to write it all out.
First and foremost, I am a hard working woman. And I put this first only to show you that this is indeed one of my characteristics that I’ve worked so hard to become. But I know – deep down, that I’m one of the most hard working individuals you’ll ever meet – period.
I am a proud democrat. Truth is, this year has been the first year in my life that I can honestly, whole heartedly say that I am a democrat. For such a long time I didn’t know what I was – didn’t understand it all and was swayed quite heavenly by family and friends. But after educating myself on everything re: politics, I know that I am a PROUD democrat – and can’t wait for the day when Obama takes office. He ROCKS!
I am scared of death. I had never thought of myself as being scared of anything. Actually, nothing. I’m just not the type of person that’s afraid. But as I come to grips with death and understanding it – I know that I’m afraid of it. However, I am trying to understand and accept it… but I know that I can honestly say that I’m deathly afraid of death.
I am secluded. For some reason I have thrown up walls all the way around me. I still haven’t figured out why – but I have finally been able to be honest with myself and know that I have blocked a lot of people out of my life and I think it has a lot to do with hurting. Hurting from the past and not wanting to deal with any pain. Therefore I put up these walls so I ‘hopefully’ will not have to deal (or face) pain. I’m working on it though.
I am determined. My Mother always used to say that once I get something in my head – I’m going to do it hell or high water. Well, my Mother is right – once I get it in my head, I’ll do whatever it takes to make it happen. If I want something bad enough – I’ll work my ass off to get it! Another thing I learned from this ‘lesson’ — My Mother is always right!
I am love. I try and love everyone. Sometimes it causes heartache (trust me, I know) – but I try and share as much love as I can… especially with my family. I want them all to know that they are number one and I love each of them so much. So every day, when I wake up, they are the first thing on my mind – and every night, when I get ready for bed, they are the last thing on my mind.
I am in love with animals! Animals make my heart melt. They are definitely a woman’s best friend. Even though I don’t have any animals right now, I enjoy visiting the neighbors pets! Whenever I go to a pet place, or a pound, etc., I want to take them all with me. Trust me, If I could – I would!
I am a self-help book junkie. I love finding ways to enlighten the spirit and love to read self-help books. I find them powerful and enduring. I love thinking positive and love the sense of being calm and relaxed. My ideal setting would be reading a self help book while listening to the rain and smelling the outdoor air.
I am a collector of books. I love collecting books, but I do have to let out a secret. Most of the time, I don’t read them all. I buy them because they look pretty and I LOVE the smell of a fresh book – the feel of it is fantastic too. I know — it’s odd, but it’s totally fun! You should try it.
I am water! I love water, through and through. If I could, I’d probably be a mermaid. I love to swim. It not only makes me feel good, but it makes me feel healthy and strong. I literately could swim for hours – and normally wrinkle like a prune!
. . . TO BE CONTINUED!
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